Friday, March 23, 2007

This Week

I have felt,
crazy mad
sad
empty
so confused
numb
anxious
annoyed
lonely in my bed
spiritual
hopeful
désespérée
I've hated the feelings this week
finally, a little peaceful

I have bought,
a Witchery cami
a Country Road cardigan and sweater
a French CD
hopefully a better vibrator than the last one

This weekend, I want to,
drink a beer
dance
sleep
meditate
learn something
wear high heels and flirt
try to resist my desperate desire to smoke
go back to who I am

9 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

amen.
delphine
ps but i quit smoking and then started up again...so bad.

3:01 PM  
Blogger Julia said...

Enjoy it before you quit again. I had a packet last/this week and really did.

3:10 PM  
Blogger surfercam said...

Sounds like a very emotional week.
Want me to bring down some 'C' size batteries?
ps - and don't smoke!

5:01 PM  
Blogger Julia said...

It has been, internally.

5:44 PM  
Anonymous Graffiti said...

Do you like making lists?

Graffiti

6:05 PM  
Blogger Luli said...

You sound like you've sorted out the things you need to do to be feelin' happy again - that, my girl, is quite an achievement! x

6:44 PM  
Blogger Julia said...

Graffiti, not really, I like expressing myself in whichever way I feel like it at the time.

Luli, hopefully yes x

7:37 PM  
Anonymous maitresse said...

isn't it strange how far we can feel from ourselves sometimes? and then at others we're ourselves but in all the wrong ways.

hope you're feeling a bit better after the weekend.

5:00 AM  
Blogger eurobrat said...

Hope the vibrator helps :)

Bad luck on the week. Better luck next week!

3:23 PM  

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